I hate my life. I really want to do something with it... but how can I get the motivation?

Bro, I understand you. Feeling alone and depressed but the thing is you gotta get up out of that man. Do you really want to carry this out your whole life? Theres nothing to be depressed about because this is your life and it's what you make of it that would make you happy or depressed. Friendship is everywhere man! When someone talk to you step up bro, don't lay reserved( I am a shy person also) talk back, laugh loud and enjoy yourself. I got the same prob, but when someone approach me do you think I'm gonna be quiet? HELL TO THE NO, I'm gonna talk especially if the girl is hot. From my experiences bro, is no good. Leave that alone, it actually makes people very reserved and it's also a sin. I try my best not to watch it and I have went two months and fell back but gotta keep trying man and if you need a friend bro, I got you, just send a email :F